Your heart beat is a vital component to every human on
earth. Without it we could not function, it determines how much blood gets
pumped and how much we can feel loved. When the heart gets excited it races and
when were heartbroken it burns. The heart is always there making a hidden clue
to our life.
Recently I was put on a heart monitor because unfortunately
my heart is not cooperating. It is not in the mood to listen to what is going on
and keep me beating at a normal pace. There are two sides to what my heart is
doing right now. One is that it cannot pump the right amount of blood accurately.
I am struggling to keep it at a constant pace and it is constantly slowing
down. Along with the slowing I get light headed and my chest will start to
hurt. Why all the sudden am I feeling so much pain? I can literally feel the
pain of my heart.
Now being the deep and poetic person that I am I begin to
think what is my heart trying to tell me? It has to have a reason to be slowing
down and causing me pain, then my mind starts to wander to abstract ideas I should
not be. Is my mind trying to tell me that I am in emotional pain? Am I sad
because I am deprived of seeing the love of my life due to life? Or am I just
confused? These thoughts come running into my mind and make me endlessly
confused. I then cannot get the suppressed thoughts out of my mind. I turn to
my dreams to give me answers and all I get is me and my boyfriend being chased
by vampires. What is that trying to tell me! My mind needs to be in sync with
my heart I am telling you! This has to be the reason that I am malfunctioning!
They are not cooperating together anymore!
So let’s hope that in the next month my heart can sort
itself out and not freak out about what’s going on! All I have to say is that
my heart needs a break and my mind can take the reins for a while! Maybe then I
can get a break from this pain in my chest and my body can become in agreement
of whats going on again.
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