What the hell is lifes purpose?

Life can me an amazing adventure with twist and turns but you come to one point in your life when you ask the question “Why are we here? And what is our purpose in life?” I have found myself to recently be pondering this question quite frequently.

Why was I placed on this earth when I am set up to be let down. When I was a little girl I dreamed of a life full of roses and happily ever afters and after my seventeen years I have finally learned those are very rare. In middle school I was put the the most hell anyone could be put through. I was bullied and pushed around for so long and never stood up for myself. They took everything from me. At the time I lost all of my friends and felt so alone. I thought I could never get over the pain I had experienced. I would fear my safety at school and cry myself to sleep. No teachers would believe me and what I was going through. I was harassed and embarresed for too long. Only my parents were there to support me. My eight grade year I had to transfer school and start all over.

My freshman year I was put into the hospital on May 31, 2010. I spontaneously could not walk and had a major fever. I was so sick and they couldn’t figure it out. I missed finals and spent my summer in and out of hospitals. I was in the hospital for two weeks and was released with a walker because I could not walk. Just imagine the pain of one day not being able to support yourself and have your whole life be turned upside down. I have had every test known to man conducted on me trying to get answers on the mystery. I gradually through therapy could work my way to crutches and then walking.

I was diagnosed with EDS a genetic disorder in which your muscles are hypermobile so you can be injured very easily. I also have an auto-immune disorder where I became sick and then my immune system did not shut back off and now it continuously attacks my body. I now am full of medications and doctors appointments. I am told to quit everything I love and stop my life. Freeze everything.

On top of that I find out that I have an aunt who also has EDS and other illnesses. She had been an amazing person to talk too. She inspires me to keep on believing in anything and that I can be an awesome person. I wish I could meet her and enjoy her company. It proves to me that I can become an adult and still come out alright.

I wish that out of all the bad I could find the good. See the light at the end of the tunnel and know what is my purpose. In life comes struggles and with struggles comes adversity, we can overcome it all to see the greater good in people.

Sorry for my ranting life story.. hope you enjoyed.