Happy halloween!

Halloween is one of the most prestigious holidays known to kids. We get to wear elaborate costumes and stay out late and get lots of candy. This was the time when sugar comas are allowed and all day we cannot sit down because we are so excited. During the school day you have a Halloween party and watch movies and eat popcorn. Then you come home and off you are until bed!

When I was little I always had the big bucket that was ready to be filled. We would go to the mall, hit up the neighborhood, and then go to my friends neighborhoods. In my step-grandmas neighborhood we would always go to last and if you go anywhere around there you need a pillow case. All that is handed out is king size candy bars and lots of sweets. Then we would all hang out as a family and talk while us kids jump on the beds in the basement. These were some of the best times of my life and I will never forget.

We begin to grow up and Halloween turns into something different. The costumes and candy remain but in a different manner. Instead of going to houses we all stay at each other’s. We watch scary movies and hangout listening to music by the bonfire. Drinking monsters instead of eating candy and ordering a million pizzas to eat. These make the memories I will never forget. We still do dress up and don’t have a problem with it the costumes still stay.

One thing I don’t really agree with when we mature with age is how Halloween can mature. Many parties are held but not that kind of parties. It is involving drinking, parting, and drugs. The costumes aren’t cute anymore they become slutty and just something to get the guys to look at you. The whole night means something completely different. The innocent fun is gone and now it is just a party.

Now that I have a sister that is still in the stage of little kid trick or treating the difference is clear to me. I enjoy Halloween at both times but it scares me to imagine the day that my sister is grown up and will be doing the same. I want her to stay little and always enjoy the innocence of Halloween.

Kennedy Football Team

Kennedy’s football team is coming up on an intense game this Wednesdays against Muscatine. After an amazing game last Friday in Iowa City I think the boys are ready to go. It was full of mud, rain, and sweat. Game begins with an outstanding run by Alex Hilyer who carried the ball all the way to our first touchdown. Even though the game was freezing and wet we still ended with a victory.

This week we are going to go into the first round to get into the finals for state football. I am ready to cheer my butt off to support our cougars so that we can show that we can take back what is ours. This year had been a rocky start for the cougars but ended up making a comeback. The last four games of our season we swept the other teams concluding our record to 4-5. We are going into this game on Wednesday as the underdogs but I am positive we can make it happen. Anything is possible if we put our minds to it.

With the excitement of the game I hope we will have outstanding support from the school not just from the ten people that constantly travel with the team. If we have a great crowd we will be at 100% for all of those cougars. They will be trying their hardest to put out their A game for us and we should too. They will then have amazing motivation and feel even more empowered to take down the other team.

With that I wish good luck to all of the cougar football players out there. You guys make us proud no matter if you win or loose you had a great comeback and we are all proud for that! Go Cougars!

Whats your future contain?

Do you ever just space off wondering about the future you will have? Ever wonder what life would be like if you would do things differently? These questions pop into my mind whenever I am zoning off in class, in my dreams, or just listening to slow songs. I wish I could play my life out many ways and then choose which one is the correct path.

Is taking chances and making mistakes worth the risk? Is what you are wondering about enough to explore and change your life as it is now. Whenever I come to one of these decisions I just want to break down. I want the answer and I want it in front of me. Now wouldn’t that be nice if that was the way life worked. Well we all know it doesn’t but I think we are all given clues to follow.

That one dream that you can’t shake is in my mind. When you cannot remember any of the others you have had but yet that one dream seemed so surreal that you cannot pass it up to remember. Then we begin to deeply explore what it means to us and our future. Will it help me gain something, or will I lose something I need or care about. I am just full of questions and avenues that the roads of my mind will never stop adventuring down. As a girl, and a girl who is all about romance and finding the loop holes to solution to a problem I want an answer! Can I please just have an answer!

There are those times when I am zoning off in class and just feel like you are raced back in time to a memory that is stuck to your brain. It’s like the other memories had been filtered into the safe but that one found a way to slip out and drive you insane! I want closure and an answer of why this memory will not shake. I consistently get distracted and cannot get anything done. I then think of ways to solve the problem but know that all of them are just my stupid Medulla Oblongata running crazy.

Finally there are those times when you are in the car, listening to your iPod, or just in your room with music on and a song comes on that you connect a memory straight too. Some are just those slow songs that know how to provoke emotion in anyone, and then there are the ones that make you think. Most of the time my mind is free and I am just zoning off when the lyrics hit you and then that song has meaning. Others make you think of a situation that the song goes with. Many I just find to become now close to my heart and very special to me.

Well who knows what my future will bring. Let’s hope my mind finds the correct avenues to explore and continue down so that it will lead to eternal happiness!

Fate, is it our destiny?

Fate is a very broad and confusing idea that was created. It makes us second guess our decisions in life and wonder what life will bring.  I always ask the question, is fate determined by our actions or the universes actions.

Have you ever had that moment when you are doing something and then all of the sudden your answer appears right in front of you? I was recently watching a captivating love movie which lead to me thinking about my love life. As I was sitting there waiting for a text I was captivated by and intense love scene. Maybe a millisecond later my phone lights up. My heart skips a beat and I cannot stop the racing thoughts running through my mind. He is the right one. I know he is because he texted me at the exact same moment that they were pronouncing their love. You know its meant to be!

Another example I have is when you are sitting in class or out and about and you start zoning out and find yourself thinking of past experiences with someone that warm your heart. Then you hear their name being yelled out, they walk past you, or your sitting there with them. You just know it’s right and your where you should be.

Is fate really a choice we are given or is it in higher powers hands? This concept truly blows my mind because at times I feel that I make decisions to determine the outcome and other something is compelling you to do them. When your brain has you dream of a situation or you day dream about it. When you “accidentally” run into someone, or when they communicate with you. Then there are other times when you take the risk and it does come out to be the best outcome. Every time I have a run in with this so called fate concept I just start to wonder. My mind goes crazy and doesn’t know what to do! I am just being swayed at the time to distract myself or am I really suppose to listen to what I am thinking about. Do I read into the subliminal message or skip right past it?

So you tell me. Do you believe that fate is determined by our actions or the universes actions?

BLANKET AND A BUCKET OF GUMMIE WORMS

The Lucky One. It is a captivating movie based on a book that can captivate you even more. As I was snuggled under my comforter and eating sour gummies I was taken in by a mystical wonderful romance that would make any girl laugh, cry, and think of their future. I am always the first to want to look at these movies and feel like you are taken away into the romance these people share. They have triumphs and tribulations but always make it through.

They can survive through anything and any optical that will get in the way.  Through parents dyeing, ex-husbands, and post traumatic stress disorder the lovers Beth and Logan make it through it all. I watch them start out not feeling anything at all, just a mere working relationship. They then one night have the Hollywood scripted kiss, when she hesitates and he grabs her in and they kiss for a long time. You can feel the love between them and that all tensions are released. I cannot help but smile when I see this occur. My own heart races and my mind runs through my life to the time that I had a kiss like this. They then have the time when they break up and cannot stop thinking of each other. Then comes the one faithful day when the damsel in distress needs her hero to come and save the day. He makes everything all right and they have that intense moment once again. It takes them back to the old times that they had and they are going to turn out alright.

I would love to everyday sit down and watch a classic love story, snuggle in a blanket by the fireplace, and eat a tub of ice cream but the truth is that’s not healthy. The movies that are my favorite just make me realize that its not true. They fill girls mind with a load of bullshit that will not occour. Look at our world today. Parents are getting divorced, people are in bad situations, and love is overlooked. Not everything will turn out like a movie because live is NOT  a movie. Its life, and life is not the fairytale it is made out to be. After I cry and then want to jump in the movies world I remind myself that movies are made to provoke those emotions and that’s exactly what they do.

FREAKING COMPUTER!

When you are in high school the main component that you will need it a computer, so that you can complete all of your assignments. Well I have experienced the worst timing of my life. This week our computer decided to feel the need to break. The ventilation system inside it stopped working so if you stay on it for a mild amount of time it will then light itself on fire. So as I am getting up Sunday morning to complete my homework over the weekend I learn that I cannot use the computer.

My mind goes into panic mode as I realize that I need the computer to blog, revise my AP LANG paper, and to type up my National Honor Society application essay. I am SCREWED.. I begin to try to think of a way to make this all run smoothly. Well I can’t go into school early and I am surely not going to the library. So I asked if I could use my dad’s laptop. He didn’t seem to mind and I plug it in. It is a older version but I thought it would do. I am logging on and go to hit on the internet and what comes up? Internet Explorer cannot display webpage at this time, would you like help? No I don’t want help I want you to work! I am so upset at this point I do not know what to do. I have my own laptop but earlier this year it decided to break to. So once again I am screwed. I then think of an genius idea to save the day. Well my phone has internet and so I can do it on there! Problem solved! I hurry and try to log onto the blogger site and realize that it is an automatic log on to my other gmail account and I cannot remember for the life of me how to get rid of it. I almost had the solution and again another problem comes up! This is just the perfect day for me. Well I wish that this would all be figured out. Well it isn’t figured out. It is never figured out.

As I contemplate what to do I soon realize the answer. I run to my mother and tell her that I need a new laptop! She could buy me one now so that we both wont be on the laptops at the same time and she can get it for me before I have to go to college! Well she said well see! Lets hope Christmas. Then I will never ever have a computer malfunction again.. well until the vent breaks.

Change is good

Change can sometimes work for the better. It may be hard at first but then eventually everything will turn out right. It makes you feel uneasy and out of order, chaos may occour. My motto is through the old comes something new, and who doesnt like something new right!
My freshman year of high school i took FOS instead of chemistry. I had the coolest teacher ever! Her name was Ms.Lewis. She would show us crazy lab demos all of the time and always make us laugh. She came up with ways for me to remeber that "CATions are positive (pusitive)" while she would complete the most rediculous cat reinactment ever! She would tell us stories that you couldnt belive about her college days and everything about her life. She would let us be loud and get rowdie and yet still learn what we need to know. Every friday when it would come around to leave her class she would say "Rember to wear your seatbets and be safe!"
The same saying did not work for her. On the weekend in the fall my family recived a phone call from the school. They were telling us that something tradgic had happened to Ms.Lewis. As normal, i figured an interaction with a student occoured or something to that manner. Well it didnt. My mom tells me the news that she had been out camping and a freak accident occoured. She was killed. Let me repeat, she was KILLED. My heart stopped in its tracks and i was completley shocked. She was gone forever and would never come back.
It is now my junior year and i am in chemistry now. When Ms. Lewis died they hired a new teacher. Ms.Reimer came and she is aweosme! I looked forward to chemistry everyday to get to learn and have fun. I must say she does a great job at what she does. She has even inspired me to looking into wanting to be a teacher! I would love to be able to make learning fun just like the way she made it fun for me!

Taken 2, good or bad?

The movie Taken had instilled fear into parents and children all around. It was a psychological thriller which had shown all the great sides of a movie you could want. The action, fear, and love. It taught many people lessons about how to protect themselves. It also made it aware to the world that things like this can happen in our crazy messed up world today.

I recently went and viewed Taken 2. It was now not only about the daughter being kidnapped and saved by her almost ninja like father it now results to the mother and father being taken also. Liam Nesson travels to Istanbul for a job. While there he invites his ex-wife who now has divorced her second husband and his daughter to come visit. While they are traveling to have a family vacation the main man of the cult is planning an attack. He wants to seek revenge on Liam Nesson for killing one of his sons.  He is planning an attack on the whole family to kill them on the land that his people were killed on. One day the mother and father leave for a semi date. The daughter Kim decides to stay for a swim at the hotel. As the couple is traveling along, Nesson senses trouble. He realizes that they are being followed. As he tries to help the wife escape she gets caught. Right before they are taken he has to make the most unfortunate phone call. Again he starts with Kim, we are going to be taken. They are coming for her too.

As they are taken Kim ends up helping her father save them. She maps out their location, locates where they are, and also uses some guns and grenades along the way. During this whole time the men have slit his wifes throat and she is about the bleed out. Liam being Liam finds a way out and saves her just in time. While he just helped save his wife his daughter is about to be shot. Once again saving her they go back to get the mom but she is gone.

Liam Nesson is now in for revenge. He will not let anyone hurt his family ever again. He goes into bad ass mode and hunts down where the leader of the cult and the wife are located. AS he see’s the image of his wife laying there motionless he find the leader. He refrains from shooting and tells him he will walk away if he promises to never hurt his family ever again. As he sets the gun down to walk away the cult leader tries to shoot, once he tried to do this Nesson killed him.

The movie was a great sequel to the original. They did leave it open for a third movie by letting us know that the leader has 2 other sons waiting. So I guess we will see!

Shoes are a girls best friend

Shoes. What are shoes? Well they are cloth or rubber things that make up what we walk on everyday. They protect us from the wet and dirty ground and keep our feet warm when needed. They provide support and also let us express our inner style. My shoe choice depends on my mood.

My knee high boots are for the dressy days. When I want to look chic and sassy I wear my boots proudly.  I pair them with my leggings to dress up my outfit. They make me feel strong and powerful. I am ready to go fro the day because I know that I can be comfortable and still look like a million bucks.

On to my heels. Heels are made for my special occasions. When I have a wedding, homecoming, or a nice dinner these are what I wear. They make me look mature and feel on top of the world. As we all know by the end of the night they become a pain and your feet are full of blisters and you cannot move them. That doesn’t matter because at the time you feel fabulous.

On my lazy days I am all for my moccasins. They have the fur that keep my feet completely warm and then they are super comfortable. I can just chill out and have no problems in the world. I feel calm and chilled out. I can slip them off and cuddle up wherever I am.

Sandals are made for my super crazy beach days. In the summer when it is time to hit the beach I grab my sandals and away I go! When we arrive at the beach those shoes come flipping off and they stay there until night. These shoes are the the best. They can come off easy, get wet, and still look cute.

My sperrys are also my best friend. They can look super sophisticated and also can be calm. They are called boat shoes for a reason anyways. They can be comftorable and made for romping around while I can look super awesome. They are my cheetah print shoes that can drive anyone crazy.

So no matter what mood I am in I can always express myself in my awesome stock pile of shoes. These shoes can make an outfit or make my day. No matter what I can always know that my shoes are there for me.

Rainy day..

Rain. Oh what can I say about the rain. Well first why don’t I let you know why im talking about rain. It keeps raining! I feel like we will be drowning and float away pretty soon because the rain keep on a coming!

The rain can be a beautiful thing. It helps put me to sleep at night. I love going to bed hearing the pitter patter of the rain coming down on my roof and hearing it run through the gutters. Its such a soothing noise that it can calm anyone of anything down. You just feel like it nurtures you to sleep and it is easy to let yourself go. Rain waters the flowers and makes all of the amazing and abundant things around us grow. Without the rain our world would look like a desert. The earth is our canvase and the rain is the paint. The rain can be romantic. In many movies kissing in the rain is the girls ideal fairytale and when it rains I always think of this. The rain gives me an excuse to want to grab a blanket, put on sweatpants, pull my hair back and watch a love movie. To put on the fire place on and take a nice nap. When the gloomy rainy day comes around it also signifies that some good food is around the corner. My mom  will get up and pull out the pot and I know whats coming. Its chili and corn bread night! The house will be super warm and filled with amazing smells. The rain brings up many great memories that I have had throughout life and will continue on forever.

On the other hand the rain can be a downer. I hate waking up and realizing that my plans for the days are over. The rain gets me in the worst mood sometimes. I would like to just sleep the whole day with all of the lights off. It makes it all gloomy and cold. The puddles you can step in and having to run to the car trying to not get your hair wet. It can make your whole day just drop. I just feel like I am in a bad mood and cannot get myself out of it. The rain can melt away my day into nothing and create the debby downer of the day.

Koyama sushi house

I recently had dinner at Koyama Sushi Restaurant. It was recently established in downtown Iowa City and it was very good. They have the Hibachi Grill where you receive your own chef and they help prepare your food in front of you. The best part of the whole experience is that you get to have an entertaining show and amazing meal. The chefs are very well trained and know how to prepare amazing food. Throughout your meal you will finish and not be able to move. You start off with the option of salad with soy vinaigrette or you can get soup. The two traditional types that are offered are miso and clear soup. As you get your soup you may also order sushi from they long menu of options. I highly recommend the Spider roll. It is filled with shrimp, crab, cucumber, seaweed, rice, and carrots. Others that are a flavor booster are their California Rolls and Captain Crunch.

After you enjoy your conversation and appetizers your chef arrives. He hand cooks your eggs and rice along with an assortment of vegetables. Around the table one at a time the chef shoots broccoli at you and if you caught it they would provide Saki bombs on the house for the adults. Saki bombs are tradition in Asia where you have a small cup placed on chop sticks on top of your drink and you hit the table and drop it in to your glass. Then you quickly drink down the alcohol. Finally you get your meat and voila! Enjoy!

Cougars in the den

Waterloo East. That is all I have to say. One of the scariest places I have ever been in my life. Its full of interesting characters and things to see. You will want to stay buckled up and keep the doors locked through this place.

Last Friday the Kennedy football team was playing at Waterloo Veteran’s stadium, and the cheerleaders and I were heading up to cheer on the team. The ride was fairly easy, we were rocking out and making music videos as we were driving on the interstate. As the game quickly approaches we realize that we are lost. Yes, lost in Waterloo, and not just Waterloo but the ghetto Waterloo. I was in the second van following the Expedition we also take to games. Suddenly the car stops and we see three interesting men walk over to our first car. He could barely stand, stumbling all around and yelling loud enough for everyone to hear. As we are sitting waiting to know where to go, we soon figure out that they have guns. We roll up the windows and lock the doors trying to be safe. It was not the smartest idea to stop and ask random strangers for help after all. We soon take off from these drunken men and think we have figured our way out. We then realize we are more lost than before. Stopping once again to ask directions we stop at a Papa John’s hoping they can help. We get a hand drawn map and think we are all good to go when we realize that there was no start and finish drawn too it. We take our best guess and drive off.

As we are driving we notice some things about the town. The Illuminati symbol was all around. Not only are we lost but the sign of the devil is all around. For those of you who do not know about the Illuminati it is a type of “gang” that devotes their soul to the devil. They are believed to kill in threes and once you join you cannot escape. Amy Winehouse was a part of the Illuminati and it was thought to be that she was trying to escape when she was killed. Another example would be in Rihanna’s S&M music video a devil appears in the smoke and spells out “princess of the Illuminati.” So as we were driving along we are seeing these symbols posted and feel that we are being trapped inside the land of a cult that you cannot escape.

As we were almost to the football field we have to drive through a huge brick barrier wall that was then cut open for cars to drive through. As we make it to the field we see fences with barbed wire all around. Thinking back to learning about the times of Hitler and Nazi’s we remember that this was a place of their rule. The cheerleaders looked like they were jumping in the form of swastikas which we were probably just exaggerating. Overall we were very overwhelmed and scared out of our minds.

As we leave to go home we are yelled at by the other team’s fans, saying that Kennedy sucks and is not important. Harassing the cheerleaders and telling us to keep walking and get home. We at this point in the night were fed up with everything that had occurred throughout the day and we let them hear it. The cougars HAD won, we HAVE good sportsmanship, and we are the BEST. At the end of the day we are cougars till the end!

HAPINESS..maybe not..

Happiness is the gift that anyone can bring. Happiness is a family you can join. Finally, Happiness can alter the world. I have all of these characteristics of Happiness in my life. That was until I made a

mistake. The fatal stupid mistake that lead to the end of my happiness.

 

I was on top of the world one day and rotting in hell the next. You can make one mistake that at the time you do not think will have an impact but it does. I have learned that making that mistake is not worth the risk when you have all you need right in front of you. I was bestowed with the gift of happiness. My world was filled with smiles and laughter. I was cheering and in show choir, had a great social life, and was overall well off. I then made the fatal mistake of not listening to my own instincts and falling from that cloud all the way down to the ground. Let me tell you that ground did not feel good at all.

 

The thunder crashed, the lighting struck, and my world was shaken to the point of no return. I had reached hell. I wish I could get out but once you get there it is difficult to make it back out alive. I would turn back time to redo all of it again. I would not be in a depressed state of the world if I could make the right word choices to my elders and if I would’ve kept my head out of my ass to see the reality of whats going on. One little mistake can change the whole set of life.

 

I lost something that I love, I lost the trust I deserved, I lost the faith in me others had. I lost everything and to think of that idea kills me. I want to be able to explain my logic but I have barried that cache so deep I don’t think I can unbarry it. I want to have my parents love me, which they always will but more than now. I wish they would trust me to leave the house, to drive down the street, or carry my phone. The biggest problem I have with this situation is that I could’ve avoided the whole situation if some actions were taken right ahead.